From Paris to The Netherlands

Forgetting your ex-lover is just a logical process to go through in life ,

everybody could , no doubt , make it

Matter of time only , if you ask me

It would be rare if that takes 10 years,

but be yourself again in 24 hours is also too ' amazing '

It is really not a problem to be friendly or polite with the one you don't love anymore ...

I always believe if you need to make a choice , meaning that's still not the right time yet ...

I sometimes feel it's not because I don't want to give any promises to anyone in life ,

A lot of times , I just feel the promises are just too phony ,

If tomorrow I meet the right one at the right time , no promise would be necessary ,

A promise only happens when you're not sure it gotta happen ...

Human being sometimes would be bothered by a couple of words , and feeling bad

What for ???

A lot of times , the speaker just didn't mean it , however  the listener has already a theater on ,

who's the victim at the end ??? yourself only

I fly , cover the sea of time

I cry , look for the love through the light

I climb , the left right side

I smile, who's the most beautiful surprise ...

When I was in the Netherlands , my interviewer asked me to dig deeper with creativity -- I'm a finance person , and he wants my imagination , whatever , I gave the interesting answers and they took me .  HR people told me they think I'm very smart and very arrogant , I meant , arrogant for someone like me in 20euros T-shirt , 50euros Jeans with a pair of rather cheap shoes among Parisien some of whom are taking a fortune on ??? ...

The offer is interesting and I'm moving to the Netherlands , the country with only TALL people , the blond people with blue eyes , my fantacy from childhood ... There's several people I would thank to and one of them called off my very much a confusion from 2004 , nobody would understand what I'm saying here but myself , my crush from 2004 , which I ever thought would last longer than that ... And never forget , there's someone always with me no matter happy or sad , fresh or depressed , ever or forever , he's there to be the one I could count on and be the one who forgives all , and the question is When I'll be ready to sign a permanent contract with him thou ?

Talking to a friend on phone , this Chinese guy living in New York just surprised me that how modern the chinese girls are right now . That is WOW !!!

While the young 20s in China are seeking for one-night-stand way of fashion , I'm still living in my small world about relationship , looking for the only one in life ; While the girls are just starting playing easy-to-get game , I'm still making my friend laugh on phone by asking ' do their parents not feel angry about that ? ' question ; While the young women are all smoking to feel very european or american , I'm still thinking that smoking is the most stupid thing in life and waking up with a stranger doesn't make u wise at all ...

 I admit , I'm very old fashion , I'm just out of time , I'm just not thinking some portion of life experiences would do good in my life and make my soul stronger anyway  , I'm definitely the ONLY type , says we should be only to each other to make it work ...

Tagore said ' we read the world wrong and say that it deceives us ' -- Is it somehow the root of the 'FASHION' in China now ?

Reading through my diary today , this poem just caught my eyes again , which I made up in 2005 , Human Resource class --- hopefully , Mr MALETTE didn't notice that I was running out of my mind ...

IF Love could be explained by any reason

IF words given could be easily forgotten

IF our meeting could be re-arranged so it never happen

THEN, Life would be sweet as in the Heaven

However , life is not a sentence coming out

Neither a theater on yesterday talking about

I couldn't find my first draft

Simply , draw your name out ...

People are getting intoxicated with the spirit of the happiness easily , cannot extricate themselves . When one day, the happiness disappear suddenly, we feel confused, lost be at our wits’ end . The day you realize that you had had something by the time you lose it ---- for My mom , she's left me for a year , however being my soulmate for a year as well

There’s some words which you would never hear from the one you expect to hear from , but who knows he/she is not saying these words in heart ? --- To jeremie , who gave me hundreds of roses on my birthday and sweet cake to melt my mind 

Hating someone, you need one minute; falling in love with someone, you need one hour; then forgetting someone, you might need a life-long time. I would choose to go toward the one who could make me smile, because the smile could lighten the dark portion of life --- To someone I've sincerely liked years ago and who's trillions of miles away now

One breaking news, since almost one week is ' one of my friends came back to Paris for a business trip , and she called her ex ' , we took a drink and she told me that she doubt he's a gay ... ridiculous , I'm not malicious , but that was even silly ... I meant I love her as my friend , I understand she sought solace from her heart confinement by telling herself or the world some sound logical explanation , but what for ??? She's got a foreseeable bright future job and loads of projects to carry on in China , why bother to 'expect' the possible rekindled relationship which , to me , was pretty simple , he's a lonely person in deep , she can't get into the world , over ... Women are rich in nostalgia ,I wouldn't commiserate my friend , for her good , if commiseration could bring you the life necessity , I would make it every minute , however , there's just no Santa Claus ... And I believe in days , weeks , or maybe in months , there would be gorgeous guys running after her and make her fine ... We didn't 'tip Mr Big would fly to paris and meet Carrie ending up as golden life statuettes , but he made it , didn't he ?


Life sometimes is just like parading up the red carpet in Oscars night , getting old and grey with ur childhood sweetheart is like taking Zara or Mango there , it won't be bad , but just inappropriate , you might need designer frocks and tuxedos in this glomorous occasion ...