From Paris to The Netherlands

Anna Karenina's story drew my mind to a complex mood again . She died , die for a type of life which lost the principle, a life which expect all the happinesses from love , when I'm talking about ' love' here , I mean the love from your lover , physically coming up prior to mentally if you ask me.

 Leo Tolstoy is a brutal writer, he finished Anna's life simply by echo from after the first meeting , the train station, the crowded platform , the cold sleeper... A story destined to end up sadly from the beginning , in the specific social environment , a woman with family . He said ' as a man, i'm done, maybe could still be used as a tool ' if he thought in this way in Italy , Anna wouldn't die.

Career and beauty , we all want it all ...

The most stupid thing ever is feeling sad in a beloved relationship, you sometimes want him/her to be just a soulmate , when it never happens , maybe it's just the right timing to say goodbye , or you could simply just see all his 'disadvantages' or ' non-understandings' as his 'special points' , then you could just 'pretend' loving him forever ... The question is ' how long you want to pretend ??? '

Vagrancy is not a bad life style , it is more an attitude. People who has experienced vagrancy could truely understand the cherish the stable life coming after. It's not only the body doing vagrancy , but also the mind-set. A 'tramp' sometimes has the heart which never going into a real vagrancy ...

Last week was not good , at least to my understanding and my wishes ...

Quite a lot of information around , you barely make Friend friends in the job , we're business connected ... Jealousy is a topic forever , that's just human being ... my wish was all the competitios are positive , aiming to make everybody better and better , the real world told me the competitions are just brutal , nobody would be happy for your doing better ...Doing communication is to make the job better or to make the people in a better performed way , the real world told me a lot are just quite waiting for your mistakes and make them bigger and 'well-known' , One and a half month in this ' real world ' , I've seen quite a lot of human weaknesses and darknesses ... As everybody would have the thinking in mind that she/he is just arriving , she/he is so ambitious ... Living in my world thinking just doing the job well and keeping running after my dreams of living all around the world , experiencing all the different cultures in the world , that's just a dream and as one of my 'friends' in this company told me that ' JJ , you've to learn how to protect yourself here... ' Guess what , I suddently , understand Louis , the guy who left Paris for Afghanistan , left his 'bright' career for an unknown world , what can I say , there's 'ambitious' people everywhere , there's mean or called smart people everywhere , however , I do believe I DO NOT want to be smart in this way , maybe the kite running thing , the landscape , the historical monuments of this century would satisfy me in a better way than the ' Real World ' is doing ...