From Paris to The Netherlands

When I walked out the office today , my boss told me ' ça va aller' , maybe , I donno , sometimes I'm so expecting this coming friday when I would have my presentation for one of our biggest investments for this quater , but most of the time , I'm just scared , a 15million euros project would be lost because of my poor performance . There's still 2 days , and I'm not ready at all

I've no idea how people usually deal with pressure , but for me , I donno how , honestly . I've been nervous for a week since got the call for this RDV , since being determined to carry on this project alone , shouting at my boyfriend , he said I'm so moody , shouting at my boss , he gave me candy: ) It's easy to calm people down , but it's so tough to calm myself down , spending hours online shopping , buying whatever , having the presentation thing in mind , the current size of the market , the interest rate for the coming year , the new french real estate law thing ... a mess , I have less than 48hours to make myself ready , these chinese people would call me tomorrow when get out of CDG airport , my boss would check out my pp presentation file tomorrow to ensure everything is fine , and I would just screwing on my sofa , having TV on , drinking beauty tea , sleeping well ... And by the way , the fastest way for me to fall asleep is , just reading french newspaper ...